neccessity is selfish?

was it necessary?
why?
sunday. funday. beach and sun ----day.
a little burnt.burnt on the day, the weekend, the emotion, the headache.....
sick and tired of thinking.
all you want to do is start drinking.
its 10pm.
smashed.
bottle caps in the trash.
the question is....now what?
bed?
an adventure that is sure to lead you to trouble?
another cold one?
what is it that you want to do?
what you want to do and what you can do are two completely different things.
sad really.
WHY cant we do what we want?
its a free country?
right.
so free, that we are inhibited by our minds.its like someone or something is controlling us.
you know what it is?
i'll pay you if you know.
freedom is a sate of mind.
impossible.
its yourself.it's denial, it's exile...it's "in style".
its the latest thing.
hiding out.
telling the lies.smiling and sayng hi? everything is fine. :)
your mind is in space.
and trust me...its written all over your face.
buenos noches...time to go home...
then your home. snuggled up with a book.
wondering why you arent out doing what you want?
asking yourself...
was it necessary?
why?